Changes

My last post was about disappointment and not feeling sure of God's plan for your family.  In this post I will explain more about what has been happening over the last several months in our lives.  God is surely at work around us!

The beginning of April Adam I contacted a realtor who is also a family friend to discuss the possibilities of selling our home in the hopes of finding something outside the City limits.  We figured there was no better time as it is a buyers market and we have nothing to lose.  The only problem...selling our current house.  We started looking at options and discussing listing prices, of course disappointed with what our profits would be but hopefull we would make up for it when we bought.  The end of April we found out we were pregnant again and were still debating about selling our house. 

The beginning of June, after much prayer and consideration, our house went on the market June 3rd.  Adam also had a promising interview with the school system in Harrisonburg, VA, near my parents.  We also had a showing the first week our house was on the market and became very optimistic.  Unfortunately, Adam was passed over for the job and the buyer was so turned off by our neighborhood they didn't even bother to look at our house. 

 A month  goes by and we are loosing hope as the job market is dry and houses are not moving, no additional showings and our realtor assured us the market was slowing even more and our house was in one of the worst areas of town to sell. 




 The week before July Fourth Adam was turned down for a position at Cargill, where my dad works.  Not knowing he had been denied my dad went to check in HR about the status of his application.  It had been thrown out with no consideration along with many other able applicants.  Adam had an interview the next week.  A week goes by and Adam is offered the position for a lower salary than originally discussed and we turned the position down.  For a whole week we both second guessed the decision.  The position offered housing but with the lower salary I would have to find work until our house here sold.  (Little did we know we would have three showings scheduled in the week to come.)  Five days after Adam turned the position down the supervisor called to explain why the salary was lower than expected.  By the end of the conversation which happened on a Friday Adam would be reconsidered for the position with the new applicants the would interview the same day.  The day before, Thursday, our house showed and on Tuesday we had an offer.  Still not knowing about the job we counter offered and signed a contract on Thursday.  Friday morning Adam heard back that he got the job for a second time. 

What I must mention is that during the week of doubt and second guessing our prayer was that if this was meant to be God would bring it back to us or something similar.  God answered our prayer and the job was re-offered at the same exact salary.  Most people would think it's dumb to take a job you turned down for the same amount of pay.  But for us it was conformation that God would provide for your needs we need only to trust in Him.  The other cool part is the supervisor had approved new HVAC expecting we would take the position and the first time turned it down.  God was already working to care for us and we didn't recognize it. 

God is a God of all times, all people and all things.  He is working all around us we just have to open our eyes and look for Him. 

The plan is for me to stay home.  I recently posted that I could not be a stay at home mom so stay tuned for the adventures over the next several moths as we make major adjustments to our life.  We will be living on a 40 acre farm about 15 minutes from the town where my parents live.  Adam will be a Farm Supervisor for 17,000 turkeys.  Let the fun begin!! 

So we got very disappointing news today that I will not go into detail about but rather share my frustration. I have a hope for my family that we would have the best in life as most mothers do. Every person's "bests" are different. What i thought might be best for our family came crashing down on my soul today with the weight of disapointment. I'm confussed with why God puts us through things, gives us hope and then leaves us with disapointment. What lesson is to be learned from that? Was my "best" list wrong, my hopes for my family wrong? Am I failing to see God all together? Why give opportunities, keeping the door cracked just long enough to have hope amd trust, and then slam the door on ur toes?

I always wanted to be stay at home mom but after days like today with only one 30 min nap I realize one of us would not survive. Call it what you will, being insensative, a bad mom, not doing my job, but i know and trust that being apart from my child makes me the best mother I can be to him. And days like today remind me how hard of work it is to tend children all day.

Trouble maker

Our perfect little angle is starting to show some true colors. Two days ago when I picked him up from daycare Dianna, the daycare mom, told me he had gotten in trouble after being told three times to stop standing on a toy.  When she took it away he threw a fit, got himself together and very politely signed “please” to Dianna asking for the toy back. 

Yesterday when I picked him up he had gotten his first time out.  Dianna told him to stop throwing toys at the cat.  He apparently looked right at Dianna, smiled, and threw it again. 

This morning when I dropped him off Dianna fills me in that he can now open some of the child proof latches, tries to climb up and stand on the back of the sofa and climbs on a chair to get to and stand on the table. 

I’m not sure we know what we have gotten ourselves into.

I'm sure he didn't know what he was saying but i just had the following conversation with Elias plain as day
me: (as im handing elias to adam) good night Bugga (his nickname) Daddy's gonna put u to bed.
Elias:i dont like this
Me: u dont like this?
Elias: shakes his head no
Me: why dont u like this?
Elias: because
Me: because why
Elias: daddy doesnt put the blanket on

Real moms get $90 tickets for running a stop sign they didnt even see.

Real moms finally get their kid a real pair of shoes (you know the epensive ones where they measure their feet and watch them walk in the shoes) and they are a size and a half bigger then what you have been putting on your kid.

Mean Mom

(I am borrowing the words that follow, I did not write them and don't know who did)  Someday when my children are old enough to understand the logic that motivates a parent, I will tell them, as my Mean Mom told me: I loved you enough…to ask where you are going, with whom, and what time you would be home.  I loved you enough to be silent and let you discover that your new best friend was a creep.  I loved you enough to make you go pay for the bubble gum you h ad taken and tell the clerk, “I stole this yesterday and want to pay for it.”  I loved you enough to stand over you for two hours while you cleaned your room, a job that should have taken 15 minutes.  I loved you enough to let you see anger, disappointment, and tears in my eyes, Children must learn that their parents aren’t perfect.  I loved you enough to let you assume the responsibility for your actions even when the penalties were so harsh they almost broke my heart.  But most of all, I loved you enough…to say NO when I knew you would hate me for it.  Those were the most difficult battles of all.  I’m glad I won them, because in the end you won, too.  And someday when your children are old enough to understand the logic that motivates parents, you will tell them.

I hope I’m a Mean Mom.